Impact

Today after church we were at the playground and I started talking to G. She came up to me the very first time we attended this church, saying; " I remember you, you are the lady with the twin preemies" LOL. That was exactly a year ago when we fostered R&R, little twin girls, the kids had a party at Chuckee Cheese and that's where we met.

Usually we just talk about the kids, like most moms. G is a little spitfire, has 4 kids and homeschools. One of the people that I look at in amazement and really admire for being able to do that !

Today was different, she started telling me she was a foster child herself for 9 years...........................9 years.......and then she turned 18 and was on her own. Thank God we have something called Independent Living now for foster teens, until they are 21.

She told me a little about her family, her siblings, how bad things were, the impact on her life and her siblings.................how some days are fine and how sometimes she just has a really hard time with all this. By now she has tears in her eyes and she has me close to tears, and then she said.............................

" I still just want my mom"

and I saw not the strong, homeschooling mom of 4 beautiful kids.
I saw a vulnerable, young woman, who after all these years and all that she has been through, still just longs for one thing.....................her mom.................for her mom to be there, be proud of her and love her.

G's head knows this is very unlikely to happen, but as she asked me, how do I heal my heart.................................

I didn't know what to say...................other than give her a huge hug........................what do you say..................

I have thought about her all day, I have prayed for her several times, that God will heal her heart, that He will heal that little girl inside of her............................

She is 10 years younger than I am, maybe she'll take me as a big sister, someone she can call when the kids are sick, or when she needs a break, or a laugh, or a cry.

She really made a huge impact one me today and I know there is a purpose to this.........................................

God bless her heart and heal her spirit !!!